so angry that all i can do is laugh

yes, ladies and gentleman, its another one of my posts from a cab...except unlike the last one. where i was happy and drunk, tonight i am angry and delusional.   i have to find another job or i will just have to quit and resort to one of my backup plans (ex. stripping.   i cant fucking go on like this.... i was supposed to get out of work at 1am, i walked out at 6am.  on top of having bronchitis and being close to death, i now missed out on sleeping and eating a proper dinner...no fucking wonder my goddamn immune system gave up and said di quit this bitchd a couple of months ago.  i wish i could do the same and walk out the doors of mollister forever.   fml.  i had several mental breakdowns at work, including a 5 minute interlude where i shut myself in the bathroom to cry.   this is legit torture.   i would have given up around 3am and said fuck it, were i not working with another manager.   i obviously couldnt peace out on her so i had to stay strong or at least as strong as an emotionally weak person such as myself can stay, and so i worked 5 additional hours for no pay....seriously...fml.  i have a doctors app on my next day off...wed. at 3:30...hopefully the doctor can hook me up with an inhaler, antibiotics, and maybe an adderall and xanax prescription while he is at it because lord knows i cant go on functioning on no sleep and under this much stress.  my skin looks like fucking shit, i think my hair is going white, and i am fucking insane as a result of sleep deprivation. stress, and the sadness of working at this awful place.  i cant stop coughing, my head is hot, and i hope i dont die in my sleep.  if i live to see wednesday. im going hard.... ill fucking party on my day off.  i need to after being subjected to this degredation and abuse.  i feel abused.... omg...im so angry i cant cry.  this is the worst.