Banned for Life

You know you've reached a new low when you get banned from the venue your boyfriend manages.   I am pretty sure I accomplished a nearly impossible feat in doing so.  Awesome (but not really).  I am never allowed to go back to highline after my actions a couple of weeks ago.  It all started off fine and dandy enough... I was just going to stop by with a friend and say 'hi' to everyone I know that works there and not drink.  Needless to say, since I know everyone that works there, I was given free drinks, got completely obliterated, and then decided that I didn't want to leave with my friend but instead decided that it was a good idea to wait for my bf to close down the joint.  In retrospect, I'm not sure why I thought waiting around for my bf to close was a good decision since the place gives me anxiety and is generally the catalyst of almost every fight I start.  I was tanked when the place closed it's doors at 4am, and my happiness and dancing took a very dark turn.

I won't go into detail for the sake of saving whatever dignity I have left (not much, I know), but I harassed and heckled nearly everyone working there.  For about a week after that night, I kept having terrible flashbacks of all of the crazy and terrible shit I did.... I am truly a psycho when I am drunk and feel neglected.   Oh well.  It's for the best.   Out of sight, out of mind- right?!

RIGHT.  Well, anyhow, I suppose I most certainly won't be spending Halloween or New Years Eve with my boyfriend this year as I not only no long work there, but furthermore am banned.  What to do... what to do.... ;)  The only good thing that came from this night was the fact that it allowed me to create an awesome comic book based around all of my various faux-pas, "derailments," insanity, and melt-downs.  It will also be a great story for my grandchildren to hear someday... Just Kidding!  I'm never having kids :D  Anyhow, I am 100% positive the ongoing stress over my job situation is what has been causing me to have anxiety and anger issues in my outside life.  I find myself wanting to snap over the dumbest things these days... It's not healthy.  Furthermore, the lack of consistency in my current work schedule is NOT working for me.  I have to decline babysitting gigs that used to at least provide me with some extra spending money since I never know if I will be available in the morning now.  My sleep schedule is all over the place as well since I might be opening at 8am or working until midnight.

Not much has been happening in my life lately other than the usual.  I had an interview for a full-time nannying position which I desperately want as it would allow me to take on a weekend job (and keep myself out of trouble) as well as to have a consistent schedule and one that is conducive to my lifestyle.  I would be able to work weekends again (which I actually really miss), and I would have mornings free again to take on other babysitting gigs.  However, I would have to pay my own insurance (terrifying and expensive as f*ck) and I would no longer have the benefit of paid sick days and vacation days (that could be compensated for though by a secondary weekend job).  I would also have plenty of time to pursue writing!!  Speaking of writing, I finally submitted my book to be copyrighted (you know- so know one steals the tales of my crazy life), and I also completed another article for Untitled-Magazine.  You can check it out below:

http://untitled-magazine.com/the-pros-and-cons-of-airbnb-com/

I suppose since I won't be spending this Halloween hostessing at Highline, I will be partying rock star style elsewhere.  My costume is finally complete, minus the tattoos.  I found exact replicas of Axl Rose's tats on Etsy, but I refuse to waste $50 for temporary tattoos I will wear for only one night.  I may just employ a friend to draw the tats on with permanent marker.

No, this isn't me.  I will look ten times hotter ;) JK... but not really ;) 

I know that you've all been dying for some slutty selfies of my Halloween costume, but it will just have to wait.  I need the tats to make it perfect.  Maybe I should just get some real ones... 

I've been thinking some very mean thoughts all day, so I should probably exercise the demons in my soul with some therapeutic writing and cooking this evening.  Maybe a glass of red wine too... that always seems to help mellow out the violent thoughts.  I don't know what has got into me.   I think I need elephant tranquilizers or maybe just a decent vacation.  Something has to give some time soon though.  I can't go on like this (said with dramatic flair).   Stay tuned for my next article on Untitled though- I'll be covering Tinder travel (vomit... ugh.... tinder, blaaaaaachhhh). ;)