Work at Highline has definitely been attributing to my crazy as of late; with my erratic sleep schedule, terrible nights where I make only enough money for a glass of wine and cab fare, nights where I am injured on the job or forced to do heavy, manual labor (lifting chairs up the stairs), or just nights when I am SO fed up of waiting on ungrateful customer's for shitty tips that don't nearly compensate for the degradation I feel as I fight my way through a crowd carrying a heavy tray of hors d'ouvres dressed like a little boy in a button up shirt and flats. Despite all of these reasons for hating my job, I love pretty much every last person I work with. It takes me a while to warm up to strangers, and it takes me months of working with someone for me to warm up enough to the idea of socializing with them outside of work. It seems that I've just made friends with the majority of my co-workers, and now I will be leaving them and starting over. I will definitely make an effort to continue hanging out with the girls I've made friends with at Highline in the future though. Even on the shittiest nights at Highline, I took comfort in the fact that we were all in it together and I'd always have someone to go out with and commiserate over a drink when whatever terrible show or event finished. I wonder if I will have that at my new job... probably not since I'm sure the majority of my employees are underage. We will see what happens.
I am pretty stoked to have that sweet employee discount again. Lord knows I need some new jeggings in my life lol. And, I will probably lose a decent chunk of weight since I won't be binge eating out of anger after a long night a work, or because I have access to those nasty, Highline chicken tenders and pepper jack cheese that I love so much. TG... I really need to get my former body back... I had a real wake up call the other night when a white dude shouted to me that he "liked a white girl with a booty." I think the other reason I am so scared of leaving Highline is that despite the fact I've been dying to have a more consistent schedule, the schedule I am on currently allows me plenty of time for dates and outings with my boyfriend, and I have the same schedule as the majority of the people I am friends with at this point, since most of my friends are people from work. I'm stoked to finally have a better job, but I don't want my relationships to suffer since things are going well right now. Who knows though; in reality, I'm quite positive that this job will be better for my relationship, since I won't be such a crazy bitch after another bad night at work all of the time. Seriously though, I sometimes leave my current job wanting to stab any person who gets in my way or looks at me wrong; that place makes me pretty miserable and I fear I sometimes take it out on the wrong people.
My sexified versian of Hollister.... ;) This is how I'd choose to fashion my Hollister clothes were it up to me.
On a final note; I want to start making a little Rolodex of business cards I am handed from people at work and call it: "Business Cards from Perverts." I will photograph the business cards and write the little story/pick up line that goes behind each and every one. People have issues....
On another note, I wonder if I will ever get to go home again.... I haven't been home since the first weekend in September and probably won't be able to request time off of work since I'm starting a brand new job. I miss my son (Bijou) and baby (Ceely). I wish I could carry Bijou around all day in a baby bjorn.... what is wrong with me?!
And on one last note, I MUST finish my book. This has been dragging on too long now. I need to get it finished, published, and live happily ever after on the royalties like Elizabeth Wurtzel before me.... the end.
