Living in NYC When You're Ugly, Undersexed, and Almost 30

I wasn't always like this - and by this I mean, "THIS" ugly.  I was always ugly.  Don't get me wrong.  It's a sad day when you finally realize you are ugly and there is nothing that can be done about it.  Weight loss, a prolonged state of anorexia to keep your unnaturally low weight maintained, a nose job, hair dye, makeup, and fashionable clothes can't even fix the state of ugly you are.

• Sometimes I wonder why I am still starving myself and putting on eyeliner every day when I am a lost cause.